Inspired by the story of a Junior Youth

Karim Rushdy, 23. Toronto, ON, Canada. Lyricist, Musician, Beatboxer.

Well i’m giving
everything i got, still barely living
so i put myself on display;
i’m opening up to the world – i cut the ribbon
…i wanna be the one to make it all work/and find what its all worth
but even when i’m giving everything i’m getting nothing in return
so i’m feeling like its all cursed
…and i still believe that one day i may just see
a relationship and some form of love from the same person who endangered me
so they tell me that i gotta express how i feel
well tell me how i’m supposed to tell them what i’m feeling inside
when they’re telling me the love that i’m feeling isn’t real?

tell me what it takes, tell me what i need
Lord, tell me will i break?
i feel like i can try but things will never change
tell me will tonight be the night that i sleep and never wake?

It’s dark and I’m lost at sea
But I look on the horizon and I can see the bay lights
all I wanna do is just wave goodbye to my ocean of pain
And embrace life
It seem like the world that i’m in
Is gonna take more than it gives

these aren’t just words that i’m writin on the page
bout the story of my life, that i made up in my mind
this is what it is
i’m tired of the lies that i’m handed
i wanna make a masterpiece with these scraps that i’m handed
i wanna paint my destiny on a pure canvas
these candid eyes on a savage face
this lonely heart – an abandoned place
i wanna vanish into air and travel with the wind
until i shake hands with grace
they say that i’m different, unstable and stressed
say that i’m less – but really i’m restless
cause i’m the pebble at the bottom of the sea
waiting for my turn to become a pearl – i’m precious

tell me what it takes, tell me what i need
Lord, tell me will i break?
i feel like i can try but things will never change
tell me will tonight be the night that i sleep and never wake?